mistakes without mishaps

It had been a mistake texting John Paul like that at Christmas. He remembered how desperate he'd been then. An all time low. But Kadan had changed all of that.

Craig had told himself early on after his move from John Paul that he was going to have a normal life. None of this secret stuff. Why had he lied to himself? It was in his nature.

He'd been a fool to give up John Paul. Now he was a fool for Kadan. And he was no where to be found. Craig wasn't pulling all the strings this time like with John Paul. And there were moments Craig would wake himself at night thinking he'd been had by Kadan.

He was definitely not on the up and up with him. Especially, how careless he'd been with Chloe. Why couldn't she see it? Was she blind by him?

At first it was a horrible feeling to have thinking he didn't want her in the picture. But she was, beautiful at that with his child.

He'd hoped they'd had a falling out of some kind and it was only for baby Caroline that they were still together. Only they weren't really together, now were they? She took care of her great Aunt's cottage out in the country, and Kadan visited regularly. Or did. Not now.

Now it was just the two of them. And it made him nervous that she might suspect. Might suspect him with Kadan. But the deeper their friendship grew, he knew she was oblivious to what he knew. Wasn't she?

"Maybe she's a very good actress." He didn't really believe that. She didn't have a devious bone in her. Of course, he couldn't stop himself from laughing until he shook. Unless it was his.

He didn't want to muster up something so remotely cold and challenging, but yes, he'd have her in a heartbeat just because. Because he could. But he wouldn't. No, he was Kadan's lover.

So far from Hollyoaks now. Now that he thought about it, what a silly little village it was. John Paul had just been a stepping stone. What would he think of him now?