Monday, April 7, 2008

brunch

Craig did his best to get himself together. There was no way of getting out of it. He had to face Kadan and Chloe as well. There was no way he could run away.


They'd decided to meet him in the city for brunch at a little place not far from Craig's flat. It was a decent enough morning. The sun out. Spring fresh a new dew. And yet Craig felt cold. Cold as ice walking into this so-called game.


He thought he might pass out when he saw Kadan sitting with Chloe out in the garden. As he came closer, he noticed she'd been crying. And he wasn't sure what he might say. He looked around for baby Caroline. She wasn't there.


"Where's Caroline?" He asked as if that was the right thing to do.


"It just didn't feel right to bring her out," Chloe said brushing a tear with the back of her hand. "I left her with my Aunt."


"She's all right, isn't she?" Craig winced, apologizing for not being their for their dinner. He felt shy now. Not wanting to sit at all, but he knew he had too. "Could I order us some drinks perhaps?" He was nervous too and sometimes, his voice would crack for no reason. He really wanted to shut himself up.


"No, no, we're fine," Kadan showed him a seat. "We've broken up for good, this time, Craig." He remained quite even lipped as Craig sat down.


"Sorry," he looked over Chloe thinking she might be happier, but maybe Kadan knew about the baby.


"I don't mean to be so...emotional." She told him. "I'm quite all right actually. I'll get use to it, you know. Its like has been, you know. Its just we're over." She looked at Craig, and he thought he might melt. Perhaps it was all an act. He wasn't sure how to follow.

"I see." He looked at Kadan then for some sort of clue, but there was none. Kadan was the keeper of secrets, perhaps, but then again, Chloe pretty much had her own as well. "So, so what now?" Craig's smile was bitter and he knew it.

"We'll keep in touch." Kadan nodded. After all, there was baby Caroline to look after. He was still a part of her life.

"I guess we'll all be one happy family, won't we." Truly, Craig thought he never had one of those. Was it possibly the three of them could somehow manage together?

Sunday, April 6, 2008

bizarre love triangle

Craig wasn't sure he could handle it. The new information about Chloe and Kadan at the same time. He felt drained.

Craig couldn't possibly face himself in the mirror, and to see them together. Just not possible.

Of course, maybe he was having a bit of morning sickness. Perhaps it had taken the stress off Chloe in some way, and he was doing her a favor. He couldn't really be sure since he really didn't have telepathy.

A part of him wanted to talk her into having an abortion. It would be the right thing to do. He guessed. And yet, he hated the idea, as well. How could he do such a thing? It thrilled him to be a father. To be a part of someone's life. How could he think it?

Thus he went in bouts of fits in his room, sometimes, crying and then to find himself in a laughing rage. He thought he might go mad.

He called his mother. "Mum, I want to come home." There, that was easy enough.

"But, but we have Newt here, where would he go? Its best to not give up, Craigy. You owe yourself an education." What education? This term was a disseaster, between the footballers bullying him and little getaways with Kadan or even with Chloe, he wasn't a real student, just one of life. So far, he wasn't getting an A for effort in it, either.

"I dunno," he cringed at the thought of facing Hollyoaks ever again, but he didn't see how he would manage this with Kadan or Chloe for that matter. It was all turning so ugly and quite scary, in fact. He told his mother that he'd try. He'd do his best.

At the moment, all he could find was a bottle of benedryl. He wondered if that would do him in.